Reached My Boiling Point

It happened. I wanted to punch a six-year-old. A few of them, actually.

That park and I seem to have a tumultuous relationship. We get along great when there are no idiots (or idiot children, yes..I’m going there) visiting.

We took the boys to the park today and they were happily playing. Then I saw a few little girls following around Samuel and laughing at him.

At first I thought it was a game, until i realized that Samuel was ignoring the girls and going about his business around the park like they weren’t there.

I went closer to investigate. The girls had gone away and i just stood near Aram. Samuel saw me and ran over. He said “Mom those kids are laughing at me!” I didn’t want to react so I just asked him why. He said, “I don’t know. I wasn’t talking to them.”

Then I started fuming!

A couple minutes later the girls came back and I was within earshot.

The girls said, “Look there he is!” Then they came over and starting pointing, making fun of what he looked like, and laughing.

I think they started to realize I was with him and they dispersed before I could confront him. I was so confused on how to handle the situation. I decided I should find their parents and talk to them.

When I finally realized who the girls’ parents were they were putting on their shoes and getting ready to leave.  I decided at that point it would be better to just leave them alone….but now I’m really regretting that.

I didn’t exactly know why they were targeting him. He was definitely the only black child at the park today. Was it because he was black? Was it because he was a boy? Was it because they didn’t like what he was wearing? I wasn’t exactly sure and I had no idea what to say to the parents because of this. I wish I had, but Brian was adamant the best thing to do was get him out of the situation. Next time those little twits are definitely going to hear a word or two from me.

On the bright side of things- Those little brats are probably going to be facing their own amount of bullying in the future. I saw their parents and it is definitely an unfortunate situation for them in the looks department.



Nuttier than a Fruitcake

That is me. And that is why I gave my blog a new look.

I’ve decided since my previous post on race how truly irritated I am.

There is a group on Yahoo for parents of children adopted from Ethiopia. The group is so large it is maelstrom of nonsense. When I first joined we were looking into adoption. The group single-handedly made me put my adoption on hold and almost scared me out of doing it forever. Not because of the scary truths of adoption, but because of the weirdos that do adopt! The posts were awful, and any time anyone that made sense tried to post back they would be brutally chewed up and spit out all over the forum walls. Oh, I shudder at the thought.

So, I finally realized that because the group was so big it led to this crazy pandemonium. Too many conflicting views of the world and how to live it- (even how to speak)…..

I was recently invited into a “secret” facebook group about adoption. At first I forgot I was in it, but then i started paying attention and asking questions in my “secret” group of other mothers that I couldn’t ask the outside world. What happened? Major backlash. Why? The same problem…..too many conflicting views (but it didn’t help the woman attacking me was borderline psychotic)…. I don’t think I’m insensitive to people, but I definitely am insensitive to politically correct nonsense that some people hold so dear. I appreciated that people were defending me, but I still left.

If you’re scared to ask questions about observations in the world in a correct forum- you’re never going to get your answer. I think the lack of knowledge about people is what creates the segregation we see in our society today.

What does Oprah say? “If you know better, you do better”- that is what I’m trying to do. Ask uncomfortable questions that can be answered and discuss them. It may not be pretty, but the outcome is worth it.I stated very boldly in my post, we can’t pretend racism doesn’t exist, but we can talk through the nonsense of race to get past it.I think the problem with those crazy PC people is that by saying everything correct we are pretending that there is no divide, and it only makes it worse. Lack of expression of faith or personal beliefs is also something I cannot stand about the crazy PCers. We are not robots, stop trying to make us act like them.

So, I left the group immediately to stop the nonsense at it’s early stage. Other people I know are still in it and probably find it useful (as well as the yahoo group, there are even good resources on there)…..just not for me.

Basically, I’m left now with a new state of crazy. I finally 100% realize I will not please anyone in any specific demographic. People are going to disapprove of you no matter what and you will never get 100% approval from any 1 group. So, you better believe in what you’re saying.

I am not racially sensitive, I’m just not. Maybe it is because between the two of us, Brian and I are very racially diverse- We make up 10 countries and four continents (Asia,Europe, South America, Australia (random!), and with Samuel we make five with Africa, and if you count the fact that we are North Americans, that makes six! So, I find it insignificant….also, I do experience racist comments all the time. Being in Los Angeles and an inconspicuous half-Armenian, I’ll get direct comments about my ethnicity from people who find my heritage “gross”- or say we are all “criminals” it goes on and on. I even told someone once I was Armenian and they immediately tried to make me feel good by saying, “you don’t look or act like them, they are weird!” It reminded me of when people say Samuel doesn’t look “African”- I’ll also get the other end and have Armenian people segregate me because they say I don’t look it or speak the language, and i must be lying.

I’ve just learned that when you start mixing things up people are going to be confused and say things about what they don’t know. It will be insensitive, and frankly, stupid. Using words like “gross” isn’t ever appropriate, but something in their life experience made them believe that. The only thing you can do is show them that it is untrue. Getting mad doesn’t really help changing people’s opinions. Saying extremely intentional and hurtful things to someone is never okay, but when someone asks a question about something they don’t understand and it comes out insensitive- I think that is good. I think the best part of the civil rights movement was the commentary going back and forth. The complete ignorance that was one-sided was exposed for what it was, and it allowed things to move forward. When we look back at the videos of that time (or even of bigotry in the 1980s) it is almost laughable at how stupid people were. The truth is, those open forums that we are watching from the past were helping us realize this.

So, I’m exposing myself as a complete nut, today. I’m going to do things that make people uncomfortable. I’m going to expose my ignorance in a well-intentioned, but probably insensitive way. If you don’t like what you see, tell me! I’m not going to stop what I’m doing, but I’ll learn!….and if you’re uncomfortable- good. This is coming from the girl who breastfeeds her almost school-aged children in public. Craziness ahead.

Race Face

Ah race, the importance of this biologically nonexistent, but socially very real noun, will annoy me for the rest of my life.

So, here is my rant. Forgive my grammatical insensitivity. This is my blog and I’m too lazy to follow the rules…..

I think it is important to acknowledge the injustice and prejudice people have experienced in this country. Even though race does not exist people still were murdered because of it. People tortured and killed other people for something that doesn’t exist. Does anyone else see the problem?

I have a hard time disregarding race, because so many people lost their lives trying to fight for their freedom. At the same time, I don’t think we can be free until we stop our ignorance to what is truth and what is myth.

Being Armenian and having the majority of my great-great family members murdered in an ethnic cleansing, helps me realize the understanding behind racism… is trying to divide humankind in a very negative way. The dictionary backs me up on this:
race –
each of the major divisions of humankind

I think it might be human nature to what to categorize everything, but the truth is that we just don’t need to with this.

Biologically, race does not exist. Everyone keeps hearing that, but it is true. Relative chimpanzees are more genetically variable than any two humans on the planet (the common fruit fly is extremely more variable than that!)….. Clearly, we can see a lot of differences in ourselves than two relative chimps, but that has nothing to do with “race.”

I remember watching this video in my first Anthropology class. It is a great description of what our differences  really mean:

I’ve heard a lot of African American opponents of transracial adoption say that white families adopting black children is “racial genocide”- The ignorance in that statement aggravates me to no end.

With us we have a double whammy. We have to be conscious of the fact that Samuel is, indeed, an African American (in the truest sense of the word)…but he also was born 100% Ethiopian. It is very important to us to embrace Ethiopian culture not just for his sake, but for ours. So, any time you take away a child from their birth country you are in some way going to be killing what would have been. You are also creating something extremely important. The true future of this world.

If people are so determined to keep their races then they should curse down the Wright brothers and Howard Hughs.

Air Travel is making our world much more accessible and much less isolated. “The Island of the Redheads” isolation can’t exist in the world we live in today…..Because of this we are seeing proportionately less fair features on people. It is only common sense that if there is no isolation in this world our whole world will essentially become a big redheaded island……..We will all start having similar features, with all races in some sense dying out, with hopefully less diseases (because of such a wide range in the gene pool)…We may end up biologically stronger- and better looking!- Look at those royals, all those years of inbreeding didn’t help too much in the looks department.